Wings of thought...
Where my thoughts take flight.....
|Posted on April 2, 2018 at 4:45 PM||comments (0)|
After returning from Ireland at the end of February I was feeling very internal and not wanting to rush back to my everyday life. I wanted to stay quiet and retain some of the magick of the Emerald Isle and my pilgrimage for myself before engaging with the world. I loved all that was being awakened in me by returning to the land of my ancestors. I can still feel a deepening of the process, I do feel different but couldn't begin to articulate why. It is a feeling, a knowing...of the layers being removed and the inner healing that is still occurring even as I write this. Inner Alchemy always at work, always in a new state of BeComing.
Then March 1st rolls around and I find myself completely resistant to scheduling any more classes and creating a monthly newsletter, that takes me alot of time, and who knows if anyone even reads newsletters anymore.
So, please, for those of you who still hear that "other" voice, keep going, keep loving, keep crying, keep trusting, and never give up on yourself and your ability to heal, to love, to overcome the conditioning of unworthiness that has been piled on you....and keep revealing your beautiful self, layer by messy layer.....Get real, get vulnerable, get soft......And know that I am here holding space for your Soul Making.
So this is how I am choosing to flow right now.....if you are still on this journey with me I am grateful, as we have so much to learn from one another. As always I thank you for your presence on my path.
So, I am choosing to share my monthly offerings below in a simpler format as I listen to what needs to birth through me and what is important to share.
I would love to hear from some of you, is anyone else feeling the need to simplify and go deeper within?
|Posted on March 15, 2018 at 1:25 PM||comments (0)|
All the time you spend thinking you are stuck or not growing or"getting it" you're inner temple, the inner you, is in the process of Becoming. What I know for sure is that inner alchemy is always occurring behind the scenes of what our ego's keeping try to feed us...so take some time, and give yourself some space to allow the reveal of your transformation. Trust that every moment, every breath is dreaming you into who you are meant to Be. Enjoy the journey~!
|Posted on January 1, 2018 at 2:25 PM||comments (0)|
As you close out 2017 and reflect back upon your year, what emotions arise in you? Was it a challenging year for you? Was it a year of growth and change? Was it the year you finally chose you? Maybe it was a year filled with blessings! What's true is...that no matter what your year held, it was perfect for the evolution of your soul, yes, even the challenging times...actually especially because of those challenging times. It is the storms of our life that help us to grow the most and understand ourselves on a deeper level.
I am closing out the first entire year that I put myself FIRST! I cannot tell you how good that feels and all of the blessings in my life that manifested because I did. All of the fears I had around putting myself first never manifested at all and I was met with a supportive energy of growth, prosperity and creativity. The most amazing people were drawn into my orbit and I finally, after 47 years rotating the Sun, feel like ME! The Me that I knew was underneath all the fear all along, the Me that was hiding behind unworthiness and insecurity, The Me that deserves to show her beautiful face to the world in confident, vulnerable acceptance of Self!
So, I encourage you to sit down and reflect on last year and ask yourself...
What do you wish to bring with you into 2018?
What is important that you leave behind?
What feeling do you desire to embody this year?
How can you add more self care into your life?
I ask you to give your ALL to 2018! Don't continue to blindly believe the false conditioning of your upbringing, our culture and the media. Make a choice to think outside the realms of your conditioning and explore your desires. Take a chance on you and move in the direction of your dreams. Have the courage to allow what needs to leave your life to go and welcome what wants to enter with open arms and an excited heart. Get off of the hamster wheel of your fears and take a chance on getting excited about life, explore every folding corner of your mind and say YES to new adventures. I leave you with a video of one of my favorite Ryan Montbleau songs & one of my favorite lyrics....
I’m toeing the line on the border
Of what’s good and what’s insane
Toeing the line testing every folded corner of my brain
And if I want too much of life
My heart will understand
That I’m making the most
Of this great big grain of sand
Watch the video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=90jw039PXmo
|Posted on November 30, 2017 at 3:05 PM||comments (1)|
I don’t know about you but I am becoming increasingly more uncomfortable with the prickly climate of our world these days. I trust that this is a process we need as a culture to bring the imbalances to light so we can transmute and transform the low vibration of humanity. I know that this is the falling of the patriarchy and the beginning of a balanced masculine and feminine energy model. If this is to happen, we need to address and transmute the lower masculine and lower feminine energies within our own selves so we can add to the shift of the collective in a positive way.
I am finding silence and inner contemplation a daily and sometimes hourly requirement. I have to withdraw from social media and limit my time around people who are desperately trying to hold on to that familiar low vibration and spend their time trying to convince me to do the same. On social media, people seem to have made it their personal goal & full time job to police other people’s behavior and beliefs instead of focusing on themselves and how they can heal and live as a better example. So, that is what I am choosing to do. I am going within to recognize all of the places that I am triggered by the energy of this climate and heal those parts of myself so I can raise my vibration and reside in a space of peace. Are there days when I get sucked in and just want to rant about all of the negativity, ugliness, sexual misconduct, lies, fears, hatred , racism and separation that I see? Yes.…but if I do that I am only adding to the same energy that upsets me which is only keeping it in motion and feeding the problem and keeping me in the lower vibration of fear and anger.
We have all been conditioned since the day we came out of our mother’s womb by our family, our culture, our society, the media, church, etc…
Do you even know how you really feel about anything?
Or do you blindly follow the masses because it is easier than self exploration?
Do you even know what YOUR truth is?
As we begin the Winter months of reflection- like Kali, Demeter, Persephone, Isis and Inanna it is time to journey to the Underworld to heal and allow your beautiful re-birth. It is time to unplug and go within to shed that cultural conditioning, tune in to YOUR truth, bring yourself back into balance and step into the unique rhythm of the life you were meant to live. Disrobing yourself of all in-authenticity and diving into your genuine, unique expression and sharing it with the world. You are the one you have been waiting for…..
|Posted on September 30, 2017 at 5:40 PM||comments (0)|
How often do you stop and listen to the inner chatter of your mind?
Really slow down, get quiet and pay attention to the language going on in the background of your day to day thoughts?
When I chose to finally do this several years ago, I was mortified at the constant loop of judgement and anger that I found there! These background thoughts hold the key to profound healing and transformation for you. These are the things you need to bring out into the light and explore them so you can transform them into healing, forgiveness, and self love. Your thoughts and words are so powerful, they are laying the bricks of the path of your life. If you focus on feeling loved, supported, open, trusting, vulnerable and strong-that is what your road will look like. If you focus on lack, fear, unworthiness, perfection, pain, anger, betrayal- that is what your road will look like. See? Your thoughts and words are truly creating your reality and your perception of everything around you. You draw to you the experiences that match the vibration of your thoughts, so if your thoughts tend to focus on the negative than you will see and experience more of that, if you shift your thoughts to focus on the positive then you will see and experience more of that.
I am walking, breathing proof of this truth! When I consciously worked on shifting my perception to see more of the light, love, positivity, kindness and support around me and started believing I was worthy of that kind of energy around me my life changed dramatically. The deeper I allowed this process and allowed true vulnerability, gave up striving for perfection, took off my good girl mask- everything started to become clear to me. I started noticing where I was the reason for struggle in my life. I received clarity of where my conditioned beliefs were crippling me from moving forward and stepping out of the hamster wheel of my thoughts and actions. I was terrified of change but I despised where I was and I felt completely helpless to move or change. I felt imprisoned by my own behaviour. So....one breath at a time I stayed present with my thoughts and worked at shifting them, I stopped the self deprecating "humor" ("let me point out my flaws first so you know I am aware of them"), I affirmed what I wanted and not what I feared, I stopped tuning into other peoples negativity and drama. I stopped perpetuating beliefs that were spoon fed to me all of my life and I slowly began to affirm that I am a being of love who is worthy and deserving of whatever beautiful thing I put my energy into. I started to trust & allow the unique flow and rhythm of MY life and let it reveal itself to me...and I was met with more peace, grace, trust, abundance and beauty than I knew was available to me.
One thing that helped me more than anything in shifting out of old thoughts and behaviours was unplugging from the media, the news and other people who wanted to keep me in that loop- because so many people love to share and commiserate about bad news, drama & trauma. Getting sucked into Facebook was another trap, because I found that sometimes Facebook became a forum for everyone's misguided anger- people policing other peoples opinions, bullying people into hearing their opinions, bashing what they hate (which is actually putting energy into exactly what you are protesting about)...it goes on and on, a negative energy loop feeding itself. I found that in just reading these things I was engaging in that same energy and low vibration and began to feel depleted. I encourage you to take a scroll through your own Facebook page with fresh eyes and pay attention to what you are sharing and engaging in to see if you are putting energy into the things you want to create in your life or things that you don't want.
So, I take power where I can- I filter whose posts I see, I scroll by and do not respond to things of a lower vibration and try and share what I love and let my posts be uplifting and positive. I see people posting sarcastic memes bashing something they're against in the name of "humor" all the time, but you know what? When you truly understand the power of your thoughts, words and energy, there is nothing funny about it. Are there times when I want to go on a rant because of something that upsets me, of course- but I stop, breathe and choose not to engage my precious energy into what I don't want.
So, this month "tune out" and "tune in" to yourself.
|Posted on September 5, 2017 at 11:20 AM||comments (0)|
Each month I choose a different Goddess to work with and bring through at my monthly "Goddess Blessing" events....or I could say She chooses me. At the beginning of the year I decided to choose a Goddess Card monthly from Jo Jayson's deck The Sacred Feminine Guidance Cards and her incredible book Self Love Through the Sacred Feminine. I thought this was perfect because there are 13 cards in the deck and it would take us through an entire year of journeying together and embracing the Goddess wisdom that is coming through so powerfully right now asking us to love and accept our Goddess selves. From the first card I pulled in January, Grandmother Spider, they have all been divinely perfect for exactly the energy that was needed that month. Mary Magdalene chose to come through in July and two of my events were scheduled for the same week, synchronistically aligning with Her Feast Day that I was unaware of and one of the woman at that months event had just returned from France for her 60th birthday celebration where she chose to visit all the sacred Magdalene sites. As the year unfolded it became clear that the Goddess was with us and showing up in perfect time with the perfect wisdom and gifts to guide us and support us through the many deep shifts we have experienced this year. We have moved through some intense Moon energy, a powerful eclipse season, the Lionsgate portal and all the while a chaotic shifting human experience unfolding all around us. The common thread through the moon messages each month and the astrological events was a clearing, a surrender, a letting go of ALL that no longer serves you and your unique path and purpose. So, as we entered August, the most powerful month this year with the eclipse energy, the Goddess who stepped forward and chose to guide us through was Kali Ma. Kali is the Goddess of life, death, destruction, transformation, endings and beginnings. She is the embodiment of Mother Nature. I admit I have avoided working with Kali, her power frightened me. But this time, I feel stronger, I welcome my shadow aspects and am excited to shed layer after layer of what has held me back for so long. So, daily I began lighting a devotional candle to Kali and offering Her a cup of water while chanting her chant, "Om Klim Kalika Yei Namaha" , and offering up my prayers, intentions, trust, and gratitude.
What I discovered in Kali was not something to be feared but a loving Mother, a Mother who would take from me what was dangerous to my soul, just as a protective and loving Mother would snatch scissors away from a child to keep them safe. I had completely misunderstood Kali all these years, I was afraid to let go of what I thought I needed to feel safe and whole. Since embracing vulnerability and trusting my path I do not fear what needs to leave my vibration to make room for the beauty already on its way.
I asked Kali in my daily prayers for a sign that she was with me and she continued to place undeniable signs on my path. And then in an organic turn of events on a fun day out with my Mom I find myself finally at Buddhas and Beads a place I have been trying to check out for a very long time. As I come around the corner what do I find....? A statue of Kali right at my feet! I have never seen a statue of Kali, I have seen Buddha, Kwan Yin etc... but never Kali! She found me and now she graces my Goddess garden where I can continue my devotion as I keep allowing the layers to peel away and bring even more clarity to my unique path and purpose.
I ask you this month to have the courage to let go and allow the unique and natural rhythm of your life to reveal itself to you. Explore where you have been following someone else's ideas of what is best for you and tune in to listen to your unique vibration and trust that. I can promise you from the other side of fear, it is worth it and completely necessary as we step into the new energy and awareness that is being offered to us.
|Posted on August 4, 2017 at 10:40 AM||comments (0)|
This past weekend I had the gift of escorting one of my dearest friends to NYC for her 50th birthday celebration! Her husband sent us to the Classic East, a two day concert at Citi Field with our favorite band, Fleetwood Mac the headliners to close the weekend. To say I feel grateful would be a huge understatement. We had such an amazing time, singing, dancing and walking all around the city in our down time.
This weekend was a huge barometer as to just how much this Womb awareness work has healed, shifted and strengthened me. See, I’ve never let my anxiety really stop me from doing anything, I’ve had some truly amazing life experiences, but it did stop me from doing these things peacefully and fully enjoying my experiences. What I noticed in reflecting on this weekend is that I did not have an ounce of anxiety. I never focused on all the things that could go wrong and instead knew no matter what happened I would handle it in a state of presence. Which allowed me to just go with the flow of my personal experience…..and I felt so peaceful in my body as each unique experience unfolded. I drove into the city and trusted that all would unfold perfectly. I felt completely safe and at ease. I never worried what was going on at home and stayed present and enjoyed every moment. I met strangers who became fast friends. I engaged with life and allowed life to love me back.
This is what this womb work is about…being grounded and present in your own powerful feminine essence, into the deep feminine wisdom that resides in you. As women most of us look outside ourselves for validation, for answers, for our truth and never acknowledge that everything you need to know is within you. When you root yourself to your own womb space & allow yourself to drop in to your own unique rhythm & completely trust that rhythm to guide you, you begin to experience a resistance free existence where your mind is open to everything and attached to nothing. You begin to understand that worry continually creates exactly what you don’t want.
As this realization of the shift that has taken place within me hit me, I felt so light, so free, so grateful. I worked really hard to get to this place. To a place where I can take full deep breaths, where I can soften into myself, where I can trust….myself, my life, the universe…..
Tom Petty said it best....
“Most things I worry about never happen anyway…”
|Posted on May 1, 2017 at 3:20 PM||comments (0)|
I have people come for Reiki or to Reiki Shares because it is the only time they are touched. That makes me so sad because physical touch is a huge, vital and nourishing part of my life . Physical connection and touch are essential to our well being and our culture has shamed sacred touch out of existence. We feel the need to ask people “Are you a hugger?” and some people cannot even accept a hug and awkwardly move through the motions waiting for it to be over. Touch is so foreign in our culture that it is often mistaken for romantic or sexual affection, not just basic human connection. One touch can convey volumes of energy and healing. We all long for it but may find difficulty in allowing it and surrendering to it.
“Touch-She Touches-She is Here to Touch
-For Touch-As Touch.
And we have forgotten this
So, when we are finally, truly, Touched
Something inside finally, truly, Remembers
that we were made for this kind of LOVING
(giving and receiving)
and this embodied recognition
Opens the gates to everything
~ Sera Beak from Red, Hot and Holy
In our technology saturated world, we are not connecting physically and are tuning out of human connection. We make judgments on people by just glancing at a photo online. Your human body is designed to use all your senses when making human connection, you see them, smell them, feel them energetically, which allows you to make an overall observation and conclusion if they are safe or compatible with you. The way technology is advancing you could design a life that requires no human contact at all. Lack of physical touch can lead to depression, withdrawal, anxiety and even acting out in anger or violence. Look at the spike in violence and the amount of people on anti depressants and anti anxiety meds, it’s outrageous. One simple touch can trigger the release of Ocytocin, the love hormone, and activates the part of the brain associated with reward and compassion. Physical touch can increase empathy. For physical healing from an energetic perspective; “Hugs strengthen the immune system...The gentle pressure on the sternum and the emotional charge this creates activates the Solar Plexus Chakra. This stimulates the thymus gland, which regulates and balances the body’s production of white blood cells, which keeps you healthy and disease free.” (Psychology Today)
I came across this video recently (Check it out https://www.facebook.com/tinytinysecrets/videos/838819372923476/?pnref=story" target="_blank">HERE) about the importance in men having the space to give and receive touch that is not sexual. Like it says, our culture has associated masculine touch with sexual attention. Our society has made everything so overly sexualized that men just avoid touch altogether and the result of that is heartbreaking in the amount of violence, depression and tuning out we are witnessing among many men. We need to do what we can to help shift this energy back into balance for the healthy survival of our humanity. We need to stop generalizing and perpetuating the belief that men are broken and unavailable and give them the space to show up by being more open and encouraging healthy, platonic, human connection. There are so many amazing men out there who just want to be validated and loved just like we do as women, but our society has shamed men into seeing this need as a weakness that they have to stuff and "man up". So, ladies, let us be gentle with our men, introduce them to their Divine Masculine essence, and show them how this open hearted loving, hugging thing is done, shall we?
There are countless physical and emotional benefits to healing touch. The fact is we need human touch to thrive. So, put down your phone and connect with your fellow humans on this short but beautiful journey of life.
We are all in this together.....
Give yourself the gift of sacred embrace.
|Posted on March 1, 2017 at 9:55 AM||comments (0)|
Hello Sisters and Brothers!
I have been sick and am honoring my body and giving her what she needs, so this month I am sharing some sacred wisdom from my mentor, my friend, my late Uncle Digby, whom I dedicate my work to.
My Uncle Digby is a wise and gentle soul, I say is, because he is still here with me and his words and lessons come through in my teachings all the time and I wanted to share a bit of him with you this month.
A letter I received from Digby many years ago included the following (Digby always typed in all lower case & I want to honor his unique expression):
"my guide and companion is stone michael. he has been my wisdom in need and anchor in the storm. he is my truthstone and journey master from ancient times. i asked him what is spirituality and how could i become more spiritual. i have attached his answer with this note."
spirituality is a softness in the universe
it is a place where all is at rest
and at peace with all else
it is not something you make happen
it is an invitation
you may find spirituality
by recognizing yourself as you are now
by enjoying and delighting in all of your being now
by accepting all your disowned fragments now
spirituality comes as much from what you let go of
as it does from what you create
when you let go of your ugliness
you make room for laughter
when you let go of your fear
you make room for curiosity
when you let go of your shame
you make room for vision
when you let go of your helplessness
you make room for creation
when you let go of your childishness
you make room for wisdom
when you let go of your arrogance
you make room for partnership
spirituality is a view of the universe
it is knowing the sanctity of all creation
spirituality comes from being within creation
all of creation is a conversation
you and i are chords in that conversation
digby * july 1999
I cherish the moments of memory that I have tucked away of my time with Digby. I miss him more with my growth and his absence, how I wish we could sit with some tea and listen to the trees, and ponder the wind and the stars.
Until we meet again ~ Slans Turas (Safe Journey's)
Explore more of Digby's Wisdom HERE
|Posted on February 7, 2017 at 3:50 PM||comments (0)|
Can you feel it?
Can you feel Her rising?
Can you feel the rumble under your feet, beneath the soil of Mother Gaia,
as She moves and grows toward the light?
The Divine Feminine is here, she is rising to join with the Divine Masculine and bring the balance that this planet is so desperately crying out for.
I have been feeling Her for years, knowing this day was coming and excited to be a part of the revolution of women owning their worth and surrendering to the softness of authentic vulnerability and love. I have bore witness to so many women's personal stories, I have been in the trenches with them as we heal together, as we cry together, as we re-member together....that this time we don't have to do it alone. This time we understand that it must be done with quiet grace and confidence in walking the beauty way...the way of unity and community....TOGETHER ...lifting one another up when we are too weary to take another step....surrendering to another's arms as we admit we just can't do it alone anymore.....allowing the tears to flow and knowing that THAT is true strength, not in holding them in.....
In the face of hate and exclusion...Let us stand together in silence and let the Presence of our love and divine feminine essence speak for us of our strength and compassion.
We are making peaceful HerStory Sisters!
The largest peaceful protest in history....seeing women from all over the world joining together in peace and love for the rights of all beings brought tears of gratitude. We are the ones we have been waiting for, keep it up Ladies!
I've never been prouder to be an awakened Woman!