I have been reflecting a lot lately on how I got to where I am today, how I am so much more comfortable in my skin, with who I am and what I bring to the world. I wasn't always this way and have suffered with anxiety and fear a lot of my life. I remember in a particularly dark moment a few years back thinking I would never resurface from the darkness and didn't know how I was going to live the rest of my life feeling this way. To everyone else I seemed happy, positive and confident....and underneath that mask that I put on everyday I was anything but those things.
This past year has been a year of huge changes that forced me to look deeper, to allow myself to explore the root of my fears and insecurities. And you know what? Once I shined the light on what I perceived to be my dark and shame filled places, they weren't nearly as dark and scary as my ego had built them up to be. I realized that I am just human and that this impossible standard I had been trying to live up to had been set by me and that I could just give myself a break! The smoke & mirror show I used to distract me from my greatness had been revealed and it was time to show up for ME! And I did....
These days.....I allow myself on a daily basis to let go of having to be perfect, to own my beautiful imperfections to love who I am exactly as I am. I practice gratitude everyday and let myself feel whatever I need to feel without judgement or shame. I honor the time I need for self care and quiet time. I stopped striving and settled into allowing my life to unfold in the beautiful way it does when I stop trying to control every outcome or prepare for every tragedy. I affirm in every moment that I am divinely guided, supported and provided for. I ask every day "How can I serve?" and listen for that answer.
And you know what the most beautiful surprise was...?
The powerful, loving souls who showed up in my life to mirror all of that back to me....I am forever grateful for the courage I found to show up for my life and vibrationally create the life I want and deserve. I encourage you to do the same.