I Am child free.
This was a conscious choice I made.
I never heard the ticking of the clock they speak of.
Although I love & enjoy babies and children it never felt like something I wanted. And I was blessed with 2 parents who would have loved grandchildren but completely honored my choice and never pressured me into feeling like I had to give them any if it didn’t feel right. My husband also blessed me with a step son to help guide in some small way on his path.
I have other women tell me that they received so much backlash from friends, family and society about choosing not to have children, I never experienced that shaming… thank Goddess!
I wonder if it is because I was truly at peace with that decision and these other women were still attached to society/family/friends view of what they “should” do and so kind of had a little chip on their shoulder waiting to be challenged in their decision.
Either way, my current journey has made it abundantly clear why I chose the road I did.
In awakening to the wisdom that was dormant in my womb, the space I deemed unnecessary to explore because I wasn’t using it for its “purpose” of birthing a baby I slowly began to allow the awareness that my womb is a gift to me. A gift to birth whatever I want into this life of mine. Whether that is a child, a project, a feeling, a teaching, my feminine potential, or deep ancestral wisdom…..all of it is birthed through the sacredness of my temple body, my womb space. My womb is not a vast wasteland just because I chose not to birth a child, it is fertile ground to bring forth all the medicine I am meant to receive and share. All I needed to do was come home to myself and know....I Am Creator….
Because I am child free I have the time and the energy to “Mother” all those who need to gift of the divine nurturing mother within me. I am filled with love to share. I thrive on the energy of nurturing someone to see their own beauty. I am honored to be a sacred space holder for so many women who share with me their stories of loss, heartache, fear, success and awareness. I am grateful to witness them come home to themselves and see just what I see when I look at them, a whole woman doing the sacred work of deeply loving the uniqueness of their essence and beginning to trust the unique flow that is their own.
Now, if I'd had children I probably wouldn’t have had the time or the energy to be present for these women who need my Mothering. Lots of them didn’t even have a Mother in their own mother. In hearing their stories and helping them to heal they are in turn helping me to heal. Sharing our stories with other women is powerful medicine. When we join forces to support each other, uplift and hold space for one another, we amplify the energy of co-creation. Creating a world together in unity and Sisterhood. A world where we all thrive in self love and acceptance. A world where we don’t have to prove our worth, our worth is our sacred birthright.
And as if I was rewarded for honoring my sacred contract I received the gift of both worlds. Liz, my best friend of 42 years gave birth to a baby girl Maya 21 years ago. I have always said she is my daughter that was birthed through my best friend. So, I did have someone to pass on some of my wisdom too, someone to brag about and witness as she grew into herself. And she has grown into the most incredible woman, who shines so brightly from the inside out! In February I was lucky enough to take an epic trip with Liz to see Maya at Trinity College in Dublin and got to spend some true quality time getting to know Maya the woman…and you know what? She is alot like me. So maybe a little of my essence rubbed off. Maybe in some quantum time hop she is my girl. Liz has raised the most amazing children in Maya and her brother Casey. She is the essence of what a Mother is and should be. She is selfless and endlessly loving and the most supportive friend to her kids, her students, her family and to me. I am so grateful that I have had this witness to my life and that she gave me a gift I could never repay, she helped me to honor the Mother within myself.
Sheree & Tiny Maya 1998 ~ Sheree & Maya Dublin 2018 ~ Liz, Maya & Sheree Howth Ireland 2018
And this past weekend I was blessed to officiate the wedding of another young girl that I had the privilege to watch grow into a strong and resilient woman and mother, my friend Amy's beautiful daughter Meri.
So, I have lots of Mothering left to do and I am excited to see what's next!
Life doesn’t always give you what you thought you’d get but it always gives you what you need. Slow down and give yourself some space to listen to that small rhythm inside of you that is crying to be felt and magnified, owned and shared. Embrace what makes you different from everyone else....that is your magick!
Trust Your Flow…..Let’s do this!
If you are having trouble finding that unique vibe of yours reach out and ask me how I can help? I would be honored to be your guide.....